Hi everyone! Today things are going to be getting a little more personal then usual. I wanted to share with you guys some things that I have been going through these last few months.
A lot of people think that bloggers are superficial and fake. Now, I see how people could think that, however, do you go on Facebook and share your laundry all over the ground? Do you post a close up picture of your face after you just woke up with acne all over? Do you share the soda cups in your car that are days old? Probably not. Now, Im not saying you should lie and pretend that your life is perfect, but reality is, no one wants to look like a hot mess.
Now, with all due respect, I know a lot of you may think that blogging is not a job. I know many people think that bloggers have it easy, that they get to sit home and do nothing all day, which quite frankly, couldn’t be farther from the truth. Blogging takes a ton of hard work and dedication, and if you are one of those people who are saying that blogging is not a real job…. please sit down with a blogger for a day and see what it is we go through to create and maintain this career.
With all that said, a few things have been getting me down lately and I have kept them built up inside of me in fear that you guys may look at me differently.
Some of you may already know what Im about to say… Some of you may not care at all, and some of you may think Im the biggest loser ever. But, I have come to terms with the fact that I am not perfect and no matter what I do in my life, I never will be.
Matt and I got married August of last year. We have been together for quite some time now and are more in love then ever. Getting married to him was one of the best, if not THE best decision I have ever made in my life. We are both 23 years old, and are so excited to be starting our life together as husband and wife.
But, its hard to start a life when you live at home with your mom…
We live in California and for those of you who don’t know, a 1 bedroom apartment here is about 2,000 a month.
We live in a house with 3 other people, 5 people total, and let me tell you… it ain’t no walk in the park.
I would love to be able to decorate my own home or even apartment. I would love to be able to have a place we get to call our own.
I want more than anything to become a full time blogger, but with how expensive it is to live here in the Bay Area, there is no way we could ever afford it.
This has been getting me down lately because I see a bunch of my amazing fellow bloggers with beautiful homes and gorgeous decor, and wonder to myself… will we ever be able to have that?
I struggle with this daily and it is something that has complely taken over my mind. I can’t help it, it hurts me to think about the fact that I may never be able to be at that place in my life,
But, then I start to think… I have a roof over my head, an amazing husband, and I live rent free.
Although, my first choice would be to move out and have our own place, we have it pretty good here, and I should never take that for granted.
If you are going through a hard time in your life, always think about the bigger picture.
We are not rich, we do not have a big house, we don’t make 6 figure incomes… but we have all that we need.
It can be hard to look at the bright side of things when it seems like everything around you, is falling apart. But, you have to think of the good things in life that you do have, and make sure to never take those for granted.
Trust God’s plan.
Thank you for living a day in the Life Of Sawdey!